tyas

Another update.

2005-11-13T18:26:52Z

Hey kids

Job at the ag behind the bar is uncertain, I worked the halloween rock night which was kewl and I got offerd another week which I couldnt do as I had no transport and Im not sure whats happening about it now. Working at the last gig was pretty kewl,

Played some more bass today which was good. Think I need to start finding some random drummers to just jam with which would be kew cause at the moment im not playing with anyone inparticular although me oli and adam are ooking to retart cult frog whih will be kewl. There looking to get me into the kitchen at wor which i more interesting, pays more and is another thing to put on my cv to make me look like a far more rounded individual, or atleast blag that pretense. The bar was busy on friday but wasnt unreasonible. The team managed to serve most individuals. GO TEAM GOOSE, working there has gained more enthusiasm its not as bad as I thought it was initaly. My co workers are pretty kewl and although I wouldnt wanna do it forever, right now it acceptable.

Very excited about India, its gunna kick a on so many levels. It hard not to be pretentious about it.

Ag was good last night Quilter and jo were back so the ag massive were out in force, found myself not drinking as much as usual, dunno it seemed like a good idea at the time. Not drinking i not somthing to be prowd of all holier than thou, Im still an alcoholic as ever it was realy weird for some reason I couldnt be arse but that was probobly somthing to do with the masive curry I had had with my dad before going thus feeling exceedingly bloated. Dad rocks I like the heart to hearts I have with my dad, hes a very down to earth level headed individual, whilt not having a gallon of street cred, he is exceptional intelligent and a life time in the oil indutry for 3 different employers provides him with a wealth of experiene that makes his conversation most knowlegable and stimulating. I am proud to be his offspring, he is a legend. He been to a varity of eastern european and Asian countries which is all very relivant to the travels that I wih to embarke upon in later life. Embrassing culture and doing thing first hand cannot posibly be commpared to anything else, it so hands on real that nothing compares to it.

My got back from grandads today. Grandad had done a very good job of pissing mum off I think there might be a more shovanist side to my grandad than what I normaly see, aparrently he usd to wind up hi mum hi mr and his mum in a simaler way. My upset is so annoying shes quite a hyper sensitive and loud individual although her preents is valued. I am very fortunate that my parents are still together although I've often wanderd why dad has hung around, and not got fed up for mum. ................................ Must be the Scrabble.............

Nah that was a silly thing to say I like mum when shes not being emotional although it would be wrong for me to hang around with her out of choice that would be sad.

This bird is very much ready to leave the nest although only the next year can realy o how true that statment is

Tyas

There you go another entry from me talking crap at u for half an hour enjoy.

tyas @ 2005-10-27T23:52:00

2005-10-27T23:19:11Z

Hey kids.
Well I seem to have finaly sloted into my boring existance untill febuary when I suppos you can realy say the adventure of life truly begins and I head off to india (Barring in mind I am likely ony to be about for a month upon my return and thus febuary will almost be my leaving home.

Mel of the ag offerd me a job working the bar on a saturday night. Which considering I was down the ag every saturday night anyway just mean means that ill be payed for being where I normaly am On a saturday night. (Can't realy complain)

Being Bandless (well Im suppose to be starting a band with henry and aiden but certain cercumstances and henrys attitude had ut me off which I can't realy put up here for public consumtption has put me off) (The thrash band cant seem to find a time to practise at the moment) has left me with an opertunity to concentrate on my own techniquie, I think i'm starting to get the hang of finger taping to a greater extent than previously. Ive ften thought to find myself a decent drumer and start a band just me and the drummer get myself some fat distortion and do the vocals between us no vocalists. but theres not enough time before I go away so this shal have to wait.

Certain insidents Have pointed out to me how predujice I actualy am. Mainly the uneducated sun reading knobs which I must serve cold carling after cold carling in the pub. Also we've recently had the house panited at an extortionate rice by a group of eople which I would consider glorified chavs. Is it just my ignorants that belive these peole to be inferior due to there lack of education and there Agressive offencive nature. Ive had friend which I would not consider the most academic of individuals but I have not realy considered very academic but it was clear to see that they were not overtly Ofencive and I respected them for there civil nature. But when someone who is blatently a 40 year uneducated philistine hurls abuse at you because you admit you have made a mistake behind the bar and are makeing an effort to correct the error, it does rather lend itself to support the idea that some people have more right to govern and are clearly more capable of rational thinkiing than others, as that kind of abuse does not get they're drinks to them any faster. Little better are the mupets from the debt collecters who come in at lunch time and demand that they are served before everyone one else and then sit down awaiting theyre tuna mayo baggette of white bread with the collesteral bucket that is our chips and sit down trying to work out the difference between the Uk and Britain. The fact that they earn more than I do and that in the currant social status they would be deemed as contributing more than I do to the world and therefor are payed more ofends me deeply. Elitism has its possitive cos at least is cuts muppets like these out of a political system which in all proboblity they neither care about nor understand.

The new iranian president is funny, hes exackly the sort of thing blair and bush fear, and hes in control. A ground attack on iran would be near impossible as they have a much larger army than iraq and possibly nuclear weaons within striking distance of Isreal. It both terrorify and a little bit exciting, anything could happen n the middle east. America and britain cant simpley shunt the force of iran a side, what are they going to do? Will this bring about a more even balence of power in the middle east. As much as wiping isreal of the map is a highly rash and unthought out statment but they should be sanctioned and not banderd to by the states for fear of looking anti semetic. The Majority of americas third world aid goes to isreal when there are far more diserving countries.

I don't claim to know everything about middle easter politics its so volitile no ones realy does.

not alot

2005-10-16T23:05:22Z

Well hear I am back in the live journal.

thing have brightend up a bit since my last entry. A weekends drinking and the realisation that I will actualy be going to india have made working in the pun more barable and I eem to know the staff alt better now which is kewl.

Ag was good last night got wankerd

Work at the ag is still continueing gigs last firday went well although etherflow fucked me off a bit and the worst band ever to play the ag didnt get a sound check so i felt a bit guilty when they were so aplauling.

need to ractise bass and paino more, trying to get premithon a gig but barring in mind the tight availableity of band members (18th of december to the 5th of january) this could proove difficult although we should play a few gigs in yorkshire (leeds and huddusfeild to be prosise) at tim and wilbers uni's which should be kewl)

hammerd i picking u well got some interesting polly rythems started the other day which whilst sounding caotic sounds well heavy.

Haveing the house panited which means i have to get up and sort out my empties collection :(.

Yep just continuation of the life of Tyas

P.s Im getting fat I need to ay football more often going to the gym is too much effort and takes to long.

Long Time no see.

2005-10-07T23:11:13Z

Well hear I am writing ones more in the online journal so everyone can see what the hell im think, if indeed I am thinking at all. Or indeed they can disifer my apauling spelling. Got out the habbit of these damn things for a while but with nothing better to do in the long months between now and when i go to india it looks like once more ill be confiding in everyone.

Started at the Flying goose ancells farm. As jobs go its ok, need to keep myself busy, The staff there are pretty kewl pretty normal people. for £4.85 an hour its not bad suppose. Still working at the ag but gigs arnt as frequent as Sam prentise has led me t belive which is a bit of a bum. As theres no gig on sunday im gunna do some more hours at the pub.

SO hear I am on an Ideal friday night having just eaten a strawberry Split starring at this computer screen wandering where all my buddies went. I think I might be a more overtly social creature than i might have preivously given myself credit for. I used to have 3 or 4 groups of people that I woud reguard as my mates but the majority of these have left and with many f the individuals in question live in far off camberely of ash I find myself in some seriously need of some interlectual conversation and a few stiff drinks.

Currently Litening to Nirvana- inutero not the most of sophisicated of listen but im in the mood for self destruction/ Suffering from too much brain wrote through lack of stimulation to listen to anything more complicated. The new Bruce Dickinson ALbum rocks everyone should go out and buy it now!!!

I miss full time education some times you don't know what you got till its gone and with full time education this is very much the case. The bliss of spending all day earning gaining furth knowlegde and skills, somtimes i dont think we in the west realise we're born. Desperatly wanting to finish education get jobs and live our lives. Not taking the time out to enjoy the idea of simply learning. Having said that blody looking forward to going to india its well scary standing in fron of 6 to 14 year old buddist monks and teaching them english without a ciriculum, but itll be a challendge and even if im not that great at it im sure they apreicate the effort. Its a win win situation i suppose. They will at least get to learn some english even if with a poor teacher which is better than none i suppose where as i get to embrace there culture and then tour theyre bueatiful country. Itll be hard but im up for the challenge.

Waiting for swansea economic and pollitics to departments to get back to me with some prior reading. Economics has got back to be ill have to look inrto the script,

Ive Had enough Of fleet and my existance here

I need to get out of this existance

I need to get out this country

A million Miles Away

Yet another journal entry

2004-06-14T12:44:41Z

Hey Kids,
I anit made a journal entry for a while and as i seem to have miss placed my friends and have just finished my exams I think now would be a good miles stone sort of thing to do one.

The exams went ok, well i think they went ok, butt last time i thought that a did realy badly in 2 of the 3 exams i took so we shall just have to wait untill august to c how i did. I feel quite confident about economics and music tech and i think i did ok in history and politics but we shall just have to wait and see.

The 8th house demo should be ready for relese in the next couple of days or in the next 2 weeks along with our gig at concord 2 in brighton this is prooveing to be a very exciting time. :D its all looking good for the band. When i heard 2 of the 4 songs we might have put on there i think i was unnessasarily rude to oli about it. This was uncalled for but im sure if hes got a problem he'll say somthing. Other than this internal band relations seem ok. After the split up of audax ive become paraniod about internal band relations breaking down because if this happens then the band doesnt write good songs and we cant funktion properly. Things are good at the moment but i cant help but feel a little paraniod about it. I like the rest of the band they're realy kewl. I just hope no one feels like an outsider and inter band member relations beggin to fail.

England lost last night grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr it was so frustrating watch our one goal lead disapere in the last minutees of injury time :( life is hard.

Unfortunatly i couldnt play football with shawfeild on wendnesday because i was at an awards evening with fleet spurs. I think my presents might have been missed but thats probobly me just being arogent. they lost 2-1 i feel a bit guilty about not being there but o well. The awards night went well i won club men of the year for my long service (bin playing since i was 10 (seven long years!!!)) to fleet spurs youth fc. That was satisfy as over many seasons i had thought about leaving the club and didnt. It was good to see my conmittment pay me back for a change. My dad won the non players award for running the team which i think is well deserved as he has run the team for the last 3 and a half years and dispite us coming bottom in his first season (although he was takingf over from a different manager that year) still stuck with it. The team went out for curry on friday night which was good. I ate 2 portions of rise. 1 poirtion of lamb korma the starters provided, 1 portion of garlic spicy chick stuff, 1 portion of kulshan special tandori dish and my own chicken vindaloo :D it was all well tasty washed down with three pints of cobra beer and toped off with a achers and a complimentyary choclate. I was trully stuffed. It was a realy good meal.

I went to a party on saturday night and got totaly wasted :) YEAY!!! Duringf the party there was a bundel and as such i was in it. SOme one either laurie or matt decided to give me a wedgey. GR no pleasent but anyway i wasnt pleased about this and during the bundel smacked someone who i though it was. I didnt realise untill about 10 seconds later that i had hit him cleanly in the temple and had knocked him out for about 20-30 seconds. I felt realy imbaressed if a little proud. ive never knocked anyone out before. Fortunatly the guy was ok and i apoligised and he seemed pretty kewl about it suprisingly. Later i managed to pull the handel off a door and lock me and may mates in the down stairs loung. I felt pretty embarised about it i realy should apoligies to emily for destroying the handel on her door. It was alright though someone opend the door from the outside and so it was all ok. I spent the next dday sleeping and being hungover. Not pleasant but possibly worth the night of excess. A big thanks to portia jazzard for giving me a lift there and back even if it is a near death experience every time i get in your car :S

Bin to a cople of gigs the datsuns last thursday and electric 6 the week before that. Both of them were well amazing i gave the guitarist from electic 6 high 5 :)
ANd im sure that i managed to look the datsuns singer bassist dude right in the eye. Im going to c anthrax later and im going well early to try and gewt to the front. Should be a damn good gig.

Well thats me for this week or so

Cya soon

Tyas

The usual sort of journal up date thing

2004-06-02T20:49:20Z

Well here i am making another journal entry

Another week has pasted by and as such there has been another game of football. As a result there is much speculation to be done as to shawfeild park ranger performance.

First half we started realy well we had them under preasure right from the start. MAca was holding well at the back which left me allister and tim to try and get the lead. After 5 mins or so of intense preasure it came. A fine move of three disicive passes aross. First a quick tap from ally to tim or tim to ally i cant remember which. Then a smooth square ball to me who saw ally in space and played a diagonal ball which had a minor (yet lucky) defection which went to the feet of ally who slotted the ball home it was a fine move. However the lead wasnt to last as on on of olden boys only attack of the first half, they managed to get a desent cross field ball which dispite a desperate attempt to get the ball clear went in our net either off of his foot or my own. Such and embarrassment. The half continued as we serched for another goal and dispite some damn good link up play between tim me and ally was not to be. I had a few oppertunites to break the dead lock but allass it just didnt happen. The Score at half time 1-1.

After the break the olden boys piled on the preasure. and we spent much of the third quarter in our own half. With the exception of a few breaking oppertunities. One of which left me one on one with the keeper but as per usual my goal scoreing skills were lower than my strategic positioning. In this weird old game of 5 a side football there seems to be less clear cut goal scoreing oppertunities. In the tense situation i seem not to be able to finish. Bit of a bummer when ur playing middle field/ somtimes forward. After getting frustraited and carring out a very agressive slide takle which dispite being illgal, i was quite pleased with, I didnt touch the player and took the ball cleanly. A minor succes. As i becane to tire i decied to swop with one of the players on the bentch and gie him a game, following maccas example. The 2 subs played very well holding the back line untill the end of the game leaving us with a final score of 1-1. The general feeling amoungst the team was disapointment. Rightly so we diserved to win we played clean (no quiet as dirt violent game taking advantage of an intimidatd refery, if they were intimdated why are they doing it? grrrr) and ran much more and played so much better than them first half. O well it was a better than last week when we lost 7-2 a point is faw better than nothing. I feel i realy need to work on my shooting. I fell im letting the team down a bit. My ball control could use a bit of fine tuning as well. All the other guys played realy well and showed determination after last weeks result. Well done lads!!! We may stay up yet. From now on we should raise our standard of play im not happy with loosing wether its close or not, I wanna win!!!.

Band practise was good today, Drummer was stuck in guildford. which was a bit of a bummer as he wasnt at practise. But we carried on none the less and wrote a new song which when finished could be damn good. We need to find a name for one of our new songs as at the moment they're both called the new song which at times gets very confusing. :S Other than the lake of drums it was a good practise. We're all very excitied about our gig at x day for the church of sub genius on the 4th of july in brighton, It should be a realy good gig and a nice way to get noticed to play else where. We're all looking forward to playing in front of a possible 600 people :D. Its jusst a matter of getting henry up to speed. Should be good. Need some more material though

Hope my revision is effective cause at the moment i think it isnt and realy think i need to do somthing about it. Im starting to get a little concerned.

Anyway thats marks world for another while. Cya all soon . Good bye DROOOGIES

Tyas

Band stuff realy.

2004-05-30T22:08:17Z

Well just finished having band practise, it was pretty damn good. We got down our first 4 recording of the band without vocals for us to use to practise against and to give the drummer something to play along to for practise. Things are looking up. There seems to be endless opertunites ariseing for gigs that people becoming opptions. Theres one in brigton which we seem to be most excited about, it realy, looks like fun. Thinks are looking up. Were look to have our demo finished by the time I go to Sri Lanka (5th of july) which is when the big gig in brighton is. We're looking to play at the somthing brewery pub in ash i think. On a thursday night. That should be fun. If it goes well me might get regular gigs there. Now that would be kewl. Getting regular paid gigs would seriously put a smile on my face. Gunna right some new stuff on wendnesday, that should bee good fun. I was gunnnna right more but im feeling well tired. Such a long productive band practise was this evening. SO cya droogies

Tyas

The World Life and everything

2004-05-27T12:33:32Z

Hello me its me again.
Well once again here i am continuing my own current existance on this small blue plantet which is the third rock from the sun. A number of things have happend since my last entry

Most notable were the generall studdies and key skills exams these could have been better but generaly i didnt have to many complaints about them. They're quailifications so long as i pass i realy dont care. The real test will come after half term when i have my 4 major exams in the space of one week. Ill be glad to get them over and done with so that i can return my attention to the important things in life. Most not abley drinking, getting high playing in me band passing my driving test the usual things that your average teenager is most conserded about. I could realy do with another party my body has a real disire for alcohol right now.

Football yesterday was F***ing poor. Sitting on the rolling subs betch i could'nt help but dispare at our second have performance. Anyone would think we hadent played football before ever. THis would be exceptable if i hadnt seen the team last week and in the first half of this weeks game where we played some damn good football and had pass and move going a treat. On our day were not a bad side we just need some organisation. Im comited to sorting it out anyway. I would be quite an ego booster for the team if we could avoid religation, which looking at the standard of the opposition is not beyond us. So if any of the team read this I am determined to keep shaw feild park rangers in the second division (i think thats the one we're in yeah?) or go down fighting not being a walk over team. You know it, I know it, were better than how we played yesterday.

8thhouse message board is booming with alsorts of debates and specualation going on as to the validness of emo rock as a genre. Most notable me and stew vs jamie. It quite a clash. I wish we could have band practise more often waiting a whole we just seems to long. Im thinking of finding a time when both me and oli have a free and suggesting we use the time to jamm. As he has now being bought into the 2 shay seen it might inspire us to produces some old skewl rage style riffs.

Looks like i might be going to see vader (slayer tribute band) on the 18 of june another gig to look forward to. ILl have 4 to go to in 18 days and if thats not excitingf i dont know what is. Ive recenbtly seen the extended reading festival line up. Can't say that the line up is as good as last year but it still looks damn good. I might have to do much more drinking this year than last or more hopfuly will do. 5 days of destroying myself sounds like good fun. \m/

Well thats it for me for another week. Finaly one last peice of co-orperate advertising. www8thhouse.co.uk thats my bands website with its new message board anyone can feel free to right abuse sell over priced gig tickets, debate or do anything on there. SO please go and doo so its good fun talking on the forum SO DO IT.

Tyas

Batterd Cod

2004-05-24T16:22:00Z

Hello its me again.
So wots new crazy cats. Not alot. Finished righting stew's new 8th house song with all the band bar hazels input and parts sorted. New drummerhenry seems pretty kewl were getting on well with him. We/I recon that in 3/4 weeks we'll be able to reasume our path of destruction and find another gig or 2. We bin looking into getting hold of the colledge reocrding hard wear and recording some stuff which should be damn kewl. Should have the 8th house message boad connected to our site during the next week which will rock if we get people posting and replying on there regularly and we get some feed back about our various gigs n such.Looks like next week we'll sort out the end of the new song and start work on ollies ambiant riff which sounds pretty kewl. Might be practising in st johns ambumance wear house thing in the middle of an industrial estate which will be kewl cos we'll be able to make some noise again. Things are looking up i wish we could practise more often. Seem to be listening to all sorts at the moment. Im looking forward to all my gigs that im going to over half term and during the exam time. These are Electric 6, the Datsuns and ANthrax :) thats somthing to look forward to :D. Watched 8 legged freaks on saturday night as i couldnt get a lift over to ash for the philanthropy show case at times house. Would be kewl to play in such a sittuation stews say, anit got no objextions im all in favour. Went and play football with the ash crew for shorefeild park rangers that was fun im looking forward to wendnesday. It pretty kewl stuff. Ive got alot to look forward to and alot to be thankful for realy. I can't realy have any complaits aboiut the satus of my life. things are pretty brill.

General studies sucks ass.

I wish somthing bad would happen to henry morgan. Hes probobly actualy alright but theres somthing about him that realy winds me up. I dunno perhaps hes just a bit of a cock. Or perhaps im bei ng realy anti social. I dunno.

Well thats another journal entry

cya soon tyas

not alot continuation.

2004-05-17T16:36:21Z

Well hear i am making another journal entry as i have nothing better to do.

The event of the moments seems to be mundays party. This was a violent afair for the last half an hour or so. When it came to be time for munday to turff us out he also had to turf out the pikeys. However there were some piky gate crashers. These decide to make a fuss and started throwing stuff in mundays swimming pool most notable his garden furniture. I endevourd to stop this and grabed the furniture they were about to throw in and told them to stop. They deicded to take offence at this and punched me a couple of times. They also punched one of mates( barfoot) and grabed one of my other mates pulling him reound by his his hair in a painful fashion (mark roberts), punched munday (whos birthday it was) and punched him a couple of times. Most shocking of all was how when mrs munday was telling them all to leavew and generaly was succesful in doing so they pushed her over. IT can be seen as the ultimate act of cowardness to push over a 48 year old woman. So from this i conclude that pikeys are a pretty low form of life. Its not the townies that realy seem the problem, i can under some people just decide to dress in crap and listen to simaler music because they dont know wots good for them. What i dont understand is why some of them gate crash parties and diliberatly get violent and start fights with people dont even know who they dont even know and havnet done anything to them. they just make me sick and make me want to get violent. they dereve to get in a fight and loose badly. hopful one day that'll happen.The whole thing seems pretty serieal afterwards. At times i wander if it realy happend at all. I suppose i had drunk 8 pints at the time which does distort my memory but as far as blame goes me and my mates are inocent.

Aside from those events life is still pretty uneventful the exams are geting closer. i continue on in my life with the usual amount of executive teenage stress that i always have done.

Band has a new drummer. His name is henry and his a few doors down from oli. If hes stays perminantly it will be damn good. once we teach him the set properly we'll be back on the move again. Thatll be somthing to lookforard 2 :)

not alot here i am in music tech

2004-05-14T12:53:16Z

well not alot is happening, here am i in music tech, the teacher mr bowden is iull so were unsupervised. (Yeay)

Um yeah not alot else has realy happen. Kinda said id play bass for 2shay, which im looking forward to it should be damn good fun. Its the sort of thing which would be well gd if people got behind it and then we could start a communist riot. whay nothing like a spot of looting on a summers evening

im looking forward to going to sri lanka. had my vaccinations for it but i fated shortly afterwards. I realy dont have a problem with injections they just make me collapse un explainably.

8th house might have a new drumer. Henry from down oli's road if enthusiastic and is right for the band stands a good chance of being our new drumer (yeay) hopful we'll have some more gigs and record a demo ect ect. Then we can start our plans for world domination.

G|oing to mundays party tommorow seems like the whole of fleet is going to it. My search for an ocassion to get pissed is finaly at an end hopeful i can convince my dad to take me booze shoping :).

For some reason i realy like the ballad of ash village, but i think the vocals in the chorus should cleaner. But the consept is damn kewl.

Seem to be more and more socialsist all the time, still all in favour of an elite administerial class telling everyone else what to do, it makes sence those who were born to lead should lead, those who were born to take orders should take orders. it makes sence just because someone is telling you wot to do doesnt make them any more important.

So this is me signing off

the world life an everything

2004-05-06T19:28:06Z

yo Everybody (and me)
Heres my first journal entry, this is a bit weird for me but here we go. Still not realy sure what i wanna do year after next, bit concerned about exams, the usual bog standard teenage stress. Need to go driniking havent in ages. Woe is me life is hard. Thats the modern world for you. Ive recently been thinking about what other peoiple think about. I seem to have classified certain people into a brand of person that seems realy uncinsere. They seem alright and everything and there is no cause for my random accusation. But some people you almosyt think of as looking down on you. Although theres no evidance of it I still feel a little intimidated by this. It almost as if they are ploting somthing else on a higher level of thought to myself that i can't comprehend. This is quite the ultimate in paranoia, think that just a few people who i meet on a day to day basies are not so cericier. They seem driven by a higher form of motivation that i cant realy put my finger on. I always think there holding somthing back somthing........ sinister. This probobly doesnt make alot of sence to people who read this other than me but it made sence in my head when i wrote it down.

For anyone who i havnt said this to go to www.8thhouse.co.uk to see me bands website (and if thats not co-operated advertiseing i dont know wot is.)

Still struggling over the left right divide in my head. Leftist policies benifit everyone and i fully understand the benifits but theres just too much opertunitiy for explotation of those not in the chain of command. it doesnt seem to work practicaly. Take stalin for instance greed power hungry bastard, who over through trotsky who was willing to operate the soviet union under colective government of the politburo. I still remain fundumentaly rooted in my belif in eliteism. If someone is good at there job they should do it and if there is a group of administrats capable of and abusing there power whilst still maintaining poweer and telling there undewrlines what to do, wot is so wrong with them being the sol source of soverienty. E.g The politburo.

Well thats all i got to say realy for now, could realy do with another band practise a perminant drum some more gigs and a demo cd. Ive done a couple of gigs with me band now and it fucking great fun, ive got the motivation and partialy crushed my stage fright, I miss playing with my band and we anit done so in about 1 and a halfs weeks. I must be a little bit sad but o well im happy being sad.

Cya soon ME